| hello livejournal! |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|07:45 pm] |
I'm sitting in my living room in South Plainfield with my daddy and Grandma watching Deal or No Deal.
Remember the days before facebook and twitter when people would constantly write huge entries about their lives and feelings?
I remember:
getting a special code and becoming part of the elite on livejournal.
when Kristen and I would write every detail of our lives and have the exact same entries.
going to Matt Harris' livejournal and laughing everytime.
Eric D ranting about music he hated and promoting Last Picked.
belonging to stupid groups where people judged each other based on their looks. (boo.)
finding Thomas' old livejournal when we first started dating and reading about his life in high school.
learning about new books from Alisha.
reading about Jessie's life before we were close and thinking she was ridiculously cool.
stealing stupid quizzes and surveys from Kristi.
It's just so weird how we express ourselves in 140 characters or less these days. I miss you Livejournal. |
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| Disappointed |
[May. 9th, 2009|10:58 pm] |
So, Thomas and I are going to California in like 11 days and I'm super duper excited! We've never been on a trip together and I've always always always wanted to go out west. We're gonna go out and stay with his cousins, Justina and Vin, and do all the quintessential LA things like see the walk of fame, griffith park and the hollywood sign and universal studios amongst other things. Needless to say, it's gonna be a GREAT trip.
The bad thing is.... I sent an email to Morgue Art Films to PA for their upcoming movie "Won Ton Baby" and they sent an email back telling me all the information of shooting. It sounds soooo exciting! It's a crazy horror film.. I don't want to give too much away about the plot because that would ruin the movie for them, but anyway.... GUESS when they are shooting? If you said the same weekend I'll be in California.. then you would be correct.
What a great experience I'll be missing for a trip I can't wait to go on. =( |
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[Mar. 13th, 2009|07:11 pm] |
So, I don't know.
Life feels very mundane right now. Nothing new and exciting ever happens to me. I pretty much do the same things all the time. I think you've hit a rough spot in your life when the highlight of it is a TV show you have currently gotten obsessed with. People ask me what's going on with me and I never have anything to say because it's nothing. I've been doing the same shit for the past four years, sure the players have changed, but the stage is still the same. I've had this weird feeling in my stomach for the past week or so. I mean, I'm really happy. I love Tom and Tom loves me. He's really the greatest and I couldn't imagine life without him. I have great friends. I make enough money to sustain life right now. But like.. something is missing. I'm so bored. There's nothing interesting about me anymore. i don't have any hobbies and I don't have the patience to get new hobbies. I don't even know what is special about me anymore. I'm not saying all this to get attention or sympathy, this is just my feelings right now.
I guess that's why I love television, books and movies. I lose myself in the stories. It's really an escape for me because nothing entertaining ever goes on. |
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[Feb. 27th, 2009|05:26 pm] |
So, something a drunken Stephanie Martin said to me last night really stuck. Oh actually maybe she wasn't drunk yet.. I think she said this at her house.
She said "Marianne loves to live her life like she's in a movie."
It's just so true for me. I've been thinking about that statement all day. I'm always thinking of ways to approach things and it comes to me like a scene out of a movie, I think about the dialogue that could happen and the different angles it could be shot from. But I don't think of any of this consciously.. it all just kind of comes out on it's own. It's just so weird to me that I think like that. I've always done it, I'm just starting to really realize it. |
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[Feb. 10th, 2009|01:10 pm] |
instead of what is the meaning of life...
ask how can i make my life more meaningful. |
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| So, let's talk about a favorite band. |
[Sep. 16th, 2008|04:34 pm] |
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| | Streetlight Manifesto - The Receiving End of it All | ] |
I'm constantly saying things are my favorite or the best, but all in all you can only have one favorite. I always have a hard time in choosing the best of a catergory.. even colors! (I have about five favorite colors.) But today I realized I do have a favorite band (perhaps it's just my favorite band today)
Having a favorite band is like slipping into a favorite sweater you forgot you had or bumping into an old friend you haven't seen in years and pick up like you've never been apart. A favorite band is more than liking the music and knowing all the words, it's getting this extreme feeling of comfortability and familiarity... Knowing the changes in the music and being able to put apart each instrument and enjoying them collectively and seperately at the same time. I just had such a feeling of joy listening to them today and I listened to all their albums over and over again. It's just a great feeling being one with music. |
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| Hot Oil Hair Treatment. |
[Apr. 22nd, 2008|02:33 pm] |
So, some time soon I am dying my hair lighter. Not extremely light, but not as dark and almost black as it is now. But because it's so dark it may damage my hair to go light.. So, Kristin, my mom's best friend who does my hair, told me to buy a hot oil hair treatment and do it to my hair before we dye it so it doesn't completely dry my hair out. They can't get kind of costly, so I found a BUNCH of at home remedies. Here's the one I'm thinking of doing, tonight.
# Of Applications: 1
Prep. Time: 0:25
2 Tbls. olive oil
1 Tbls. honey
-Combine oil and honey in small plastic sandwich bag.
-Fill a coffee cup with boiling water.
-Dip sandwich bag in water just until oil is warmed.
-Apply warm oil to dry hair, working from scalp to tips.
-Cover your head with a shower cap and leave for 15 minutes.
-Wash hair as usual.
Notes: While hair is conditioning, hop in the shower or bath. The warmer
the oil stays, the better it works and the easier it washes out!
Let me know if this sounds good.. or if you know of a better home remedy that i could do. This one got great reviews. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2008|07:37 pm] |
Dear Men of the World,
DO NOT HANG OUT WITH YOUR FRIENDS WHEN IT'S A SPECIAL DAY WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND. WHETHER IT BE HER BIRTHDAY OR YOUR ANNIVERSARY OR VALENTINE'S DAY OR SOME STUPID SHIT LIKE THAT.
From,
Marianne Pinaha. |
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| myspace. |
[Mar. 18th, 2008|09:26 am] |
i just got a myspace message that CRACKED ME UP!!!
subject line: I am jealous...
body: ... of your man. you're adorable!
and that's the whole thing. I don't know why it made me laugh soo much, but it did.
Happy Spring Break! Woo! |
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| Mini Theater Week. |
[Mar. 11th, 2008|05:22 pm] |
So, I don't know if I updated about this, yet, buuuut. I'm choreographing dances for a play for the girls' school that I babysit for. I went into it with Sondra, the director, telling me that I had free reign when it came to the dances and there would be mom's in the room with me to help keep the kids in line and to help with their lines in the show. Originally, it started out well, with the moms helping me. Turns out, these moms started changing all my moves. It reallly bothered me because they did not ask me if they good and I was brought on as the choreographer. I worked hard on those moves, I didn't just throw shit together, it took me time and lots of changes to get it right. They had noo right to change it without asking me. They said they changed it because it was "too hard." I'm sorry, but the kids were getting all the moves I was giving them. It was the stupid fucking parents saying they couldn't do it. So, they went ahead and changed shit. Now, the kids are so confused because they don't know which moves are the ones to do now. I tried helping them and fixing stuff, but I just got attitudes from the moms. These are only the first two dances in the show. The ones I spent the most time on. 3, 4 and 5, I just threw together. Today, the director said, "It's okay, 3, 4, and 5 are all yours, just let these moms do whatever." What the hell.. I spent like 2 hours putting together the first two songs, I'm the fucking choreographer. Not the stupid moms. If they were the choreographer or my assistant, it'd be a different story. I'm so angry. I can't even watch the first dance. It's sooooooooo not mine anymore. I want to cry just watching it. It used to be my creativity, not aaaanymore.
Ugh. |
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[Feb. 21st, 2008|10:40 am] |
So, I'm babysitting allll day today and allll day tomorrow. I'm so sleepies.. I wish they like to take naps, but apparently naps are just NOT cool. I keep trying to entice them with naps telling them all the fun they are, but they are not having it. I might take one when their friend comes over. Also, their whole downstairs is FREEZING while their upstairs is hot as fuck, but they don't want to hang out upstairs because the computer is down here. Oh well, I'm just complaining because I'm a grumpy and sleepy bear.
I like school. I have a bunch of friends there now and I'm learning a LOT. In Kean Idol, I played the part of Director, Technical Director and Cameraman. I've never ever done things like that in a TV studio and I had a blast doing it. I'm really really enjoying my major. I love everything about TV. I'm very happy I switched even though I'll be in school forever. Also, next Tuesday, I will be hosting Kean Idol and then it'll be on youtube. I'll have to post links. lol. And a new season of Kean Idol is coming up.. So, I'll also post about auditions later on. =)
Tommer and I had a great Valentine's day. I love him sooooo much. We went to the Cheesecake factory, saw puppies and saw Definitely, Maybe. The movie was reallly good. I baked him White Chocolate Macadamia Nut cookies.. it was so difficult! lol. His whole family said they were good.. soo! I guess they were! I just.. love Tom. Like, seriously. You know what sucks, though? Our one year anniversary is Easter! How lame!
I want to go on an overnight trip somewhere. Maybe just for one night or a weekend or something, but I want to get away for a short period of time. I coooullld've gone to Disney this spring break, but I just don't really think I'll have the money for it right now.. and Tommer couldn't come. I wouldn't want to be a tag along for Jessie and Robbie. I figured they'd have more fun just the two of them. I also reallly want to go out of the country. I desperately want to go to Europe and I want to see a lot more of the United States. I've never gone ANYWHERE. The extent of my traveling has been New York, Pennsylvania, Massachusettes, Virginia, Florida and Canada. That's it. I really want to travel. |
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| so... i'm pissed, |
[Feb. 9th, 2008|02:43 am] |
i was "sent" to bed when the cops came because i'm "drunk." but.. i'm fucking twenty years old and i'm still not allowed to see my fucking boyfriend. whatever man. i'm so pissed. i just want to see him, but i'm sent away, like always. i was told to go away. and i'm obviously drunk, but so are they.. and they are drunker than me. whatever man. get the fuck out of here.
EDIIITTT!!!!!
So! I was veryyyy drunk when I wrote that. I'm not deleting it because it's hilarious and i DO NOT remember writing that. Jess just told me that I wrote a livejournal entry. I have nooo recollection of it. lol. But I wasss drunk and it was good that I went in the other room in case the cops decided to card people. Whoops! |
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| Imaaaaginaatiooon. |
[Feb. 6th, 2008|05:16 pm] |
So. I have a really intense imagination.. whether it be in my dreams or when I'm walking around by myself.
I always seem to think I'm in a movie, but they aren't all fabulous, happy-go-lucky movies. Sometimes I freak myself out sooo much, I think things are watching me or following me. I think it's because I watch so many thrillers, horror movies and cases about murderers. Also, I read tons of books about vampires and futuristic soceities.
Last night, for example, my imagination ran away with me. I was leaving Stephanie Martin's house in New Brunswick. Before I left, I told her I was scared to walk to my car alone. My car wasn't that far away.. only like a block down the street, but it was a dead end and kind of dark. i started walking slowly on the sidewalk, but the sloshing of my boots scared me and made me feel like I was being followed. So, I started running down the middle of the street. Things were echoing all around me and I immediately thought that the infected for "I Am Legend" were chasing me. Trees started to look like people and I was seriously running full speed and breathing heavily because I was so scared. I whipped my head around to see if anyone was behind me and I imagined all the camera angles that caught my expression. I passed a parking deck and heard someone drop something, which made me think something was being thrown at me. I got to my car, unlocked the door and jumped in. I imagined that something was going to jump onto my car and try to stop me. I sped away, looking in my rear view mirror expecting to see something. I didn't feel better until I turn onto Easton Avenue where I was surrounded by people and other moving cars.
Thank goodness no on was watching me while I was running. It seriously felt like I was stuck in that state for like ten minutes, but it was only about 30 seconds.
Stuff like that happens to me allll the time. Good and bad. It gets really scary sometimes. Does this happen to anyone else? Or am I just a over-imaginative(don't know if that's a word.) weirdo? |
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| wedding. |
[Jan. 6th, 2008|05:54 pm] |
so, my brother's getting married tomorrow.
he and his fiance just decided earlier today that they're going to town hall tomorrow to get married.
weird. |
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| Life's what you make it, so let's make it right.. |
[Dec. 31st, 2007|05:20 pm] |
Yeah, those are Hannah Montana lyrics.
So, let's talk about 2007.
It feels so crazy to me that 2007 has come and gone so quickly. I cannot believe I'm 20, nor do I feel like it. I don't feel old or mature enough be an adult.
2007 was one of the craziest, most emotionally challenging and most adventurous years of my life.
I rang in 2007 in Stephanie Kidd's bathroom with Kristin. Granted it might not seem like the most glamorous new year's ever, but quite honestly, I couldn't see myself spending it any other way. I was a completely different person than. I was in a relationship that was NOT for me and I was just abusing myself by not making things better for myself at the time. I was a very depressing person to be around. I had just gotten kicked out of my mom's house for the last time ever. I permanently moved into my daddy's house. That was the best decision I've ever made in my whole life. I'm much happier now that I'm living with my dad. Stephanie Martin completely pulled me out of the funk I was in at the beginning of the year. We hung out ALL the time and she got me to try new things, go new places and meet new people. Without her, who knows where I'd be in life right now. I truly love and appreciate her for everything she's ever done for me. When I felt like I had no one else, she was there for me the second I needed her. She brought me to Rutgers one night to party and get out of Rahway because I felt like I had lost everything there.
This is where I met Dave and Brian. Which completely changed my life forever. I started to hang out there every weekend and became really close with Brian. He's such a nice guy, but the best thing that came out of the boys' apartment was that I met Tommer. =) I had a thing for him the SECOND I saw him. I knew that he was what I wanted, but there was nothing I could do about it because I was kinda involved with Brian at this point. Eventually, I couldn't handle it anymore. So, I told Tom how I felt and we've been together ever since. Granted, things aren't always perfect with us and basically none of my friends like him (which kills me every day) but I love him and he and I have so much in common. He means everything to me and I'm so glad he came into my life.
In 2007, I stopped going to school and got a full time job at Hooters. I made tons of money (I have noooo idea where it all went.) I'm so glad I was a Hooters girl. I met tons of people and had a lot of fun at my job. After awhile, I realized that it was not for me anymore because my boss was a complete douche bag and I quit. But from working there I realized that I needed to get my shit in order so I could go back to school. Which I did this semester and I'm really happy I did. I'm going to be in school forever if I don't start being a good student and that is my new years resolution.
And how about driving?! Marianne Pinaha finally started driving in February of 2007. I honestly never thought that would've happened. Now, I can't imagine what it'd be like to not have a license. I was sooo happy when I got it. I seriously started crying because I thought I failed, but I passed! It made me sooo happy!
Friendships were CRAZY this year. I've made tons and tons of new friends and at times lost all my true close friends completely. I was a mess over the summer without certain friendships. I stopped talking to so many friends this year at different times, but I'm happy to say that any differences that may have happened this year have been settled and going into 2008. I'm completely happy with all the friends I have. (new and old.)
Kristi started dating Teejay, so that meant that I got to see that girl so much more than I ever had. Granted, I could've made the effort to see her more previously.. but this year I feel we've gotten so much closer and that makes me very happy. We talk almost every day and that's no good for my cell phone bill, but I love having her in my life. Speaking of Kizmanns.. I spent SO much of 2007 at Jessie's house. We've become really close friends. We've shared a lot of things with each other that I would've never imagined back in the day when I would see her at Kizmann family parties back in the day. When she was a "bad" kid. lol.
Kristen Lenkiewicz came back into my life and she is here to stay. We've been through tons of shit, but that girl is one of the best friends I've ever had. We've stopped talking a few times, but that will not happen again. Our relationship is stronger than it's ever been. It's so crazy that she lived five minutes away from me for so long and it felt like we were complete strangers, but now she lives an hour away from me and our friendship is so much stronger. I love that girl!
My mom and I completely stopped talking for a long time this year. I did not like her and didn't want her in my life. Now, we're actually friends. We talk on the phone all the time and I can confide in her about anything. Me moving out was the best thing that's ever happened to our relationship.
I feel like I've completely grown as a person and have learned so much from the disaster I was at the beginning of the year.
This is the first year I'm celebrating New Years away from my friends from Rahway and it's making me extremely sad. I've alllways celebrated New Years with them. It's a really weird feeling, but I'm hoping I'll still have a good time. They better be expecting calls from me at midnight cuz I won't be there to celebrate in their fun!
I love you all... HAPPY NEW YEAR! <3 |
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| Hmm... |
[Dec. 29th, 2007|04:29 pm] |
i think there's something wrong with my grandpa.
but i think my daddy's not telling me the truth.
i just found a note for my daddy from his stupid wife. she wrote this whole note about her going to her mom's house because she didn't want to fight and at the end of the note it said "hope your dad's okay."
i called daddy to see if everything's okay and he said that grandpa was having a really hard time breathing and had to go to the hospital, but everything's okay. apparently, grandpa is going to be in the hospital until tuesday and that he's on oxygen. my dad doesn't like to tell me the truth about this stuff cuz i get really emotional. and he doesn't want to see me cry. so now i'm nervous because my grandfather is really sick. he has a lot of heart problems and breathing problems and every time i've seen him he's been preparing us all for when he passes away. like telling my dad where all of his financial stuff is located and stuff like that. but i keep telling myself that my grandpa is being ridiculous and everything's fine, but now i'm not too sure.
and daddy just recently found out that he has a form of leukemia, but that it's under control. i'm hoping he's telling me the whole truth because i'm so scared for him. i love him so much. i don't know what i'd do without him. |
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| Pregnancy. |
[Dec. 19th, 2007|02:22 pm] |
So... Jamie Lynn Spears is pregnant.
I didn't want to believe it when I saw it on AOL at like 3am and I still didn't want to believe it when I heard it on Z100 this morning. I didn't want to believe it when Tom called to talk to me about it, but I've been doing my research and Nickelodeon confirmed it for me when they released a statement today supporting her.
She's 16 years old and she sees the trainwreck that is her sister (who I still love) but really... 16. I can't believe that. Especially because she's Zoey 101. She's 3 months pregnant with her 19 year old boyfriend that she's been dating for a long time. I don't know. It's just disappointing.. I don't usually let things like that effect me, but she's soooo young and you'd think she would learn from Britney.
Also.. Lilly Allen's pregnant. lol. |
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| money money money money...money.. MONEY! |
[Nov. 25th, 2007|04:31 pm] |
So, like, yeah.
I'm pretty much broke. I mean.. I'm not, but I am. Christmas is exactly one month from today and I haven't really started Christmas shopping at ALL! I asked my parents if I could do odd jobs for them for extra Christmas spendage. So, little ol' me will be raking up leaves and bagging them at both of my homes and babysitting Tessie. So.. that should be... fun. I think my rates are going to be really fucking high. I've never raked in my life. lol.
Thanksgiving break was pretty good times. Partying, Tree Lighting, Grandparents..ing, Philly and lots of friends. Some ridiculous pictures from Graifer's house the other night should be on the internetz soon enough.
Saw Trophy Scars for the first time ever.. FINALLY! They were amazing. They put on such a good show and played all my favorite songs. Every band that played last night was a powerhouse of energy and entertainment. Not one flop. I'm so glad I ended up going. It was such a great show. Lots of interesting characters over there on the Philly scene. Kristen and I were definitely lost in both Camden and Philly for like a half hour last night. Mapquest kept trying to send us down the wrong direction on one way streets.
So, I want to do lots of fun wintery things this year! I mean it.. let's play in the snow and maybe go on a little trip somewhere. Let's do lots of things! And let's party!!! =) |
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| I have a few letters to write... |
[Nov. 16th, 2007|08:00 pm] |
Dear T-Mobile,
I HAAATE you! You never give me service and you never send my text messages or let me receive others calls or texts.
Die!
-Marianne Pinaha.
Dear Daddy,
Please please please let me get verizon... I can't do this anymore.
Love Always,
Marianne Pinaha.
Dear Verizon,
One day we'll be together and it will be as blissful as ever! Hopefully that day is soon!
Longingly Yours,
Marianne Pinaha.
Dear Networks and Producers,
Please give into your writers wishes. I can't handle my shows being over. I really enjoy the programming out there today and I don't want to lose it forever. My shows are starting to be affected and I am not a happy camper. So, yeah.. listen to your writers.
Do it. Now.
-Marianne Pinaha. |
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| I almost just died... |
[Oct. 25th, 2007|11:51 am] |
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I was driving home from school and getting off the parkway on an off ramp and I completely lost control of my car. It was spinning in the ramp and I hit the brakes and it just kept spinning and I crashed into a grassy ditch thing. Thank goodness I stopped because if kept going I would've crashed into the hill next to it. I'm freaking out and shaking and crying. It was the scariest thing. And I lkeep thinking.. what if it wasn't a grassy ditch.. what if it was a median.. or a tree? I'd be done. =( |
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